koko, we've been waiting for you.

from by strumi



out of line, out of touch, can't go back: golden boy.
break my heart or break your heart
dress me up like a boy i'm your "special son"

"ignore it all, this is the way you will be, you will learn to be happy."

will i ever be able to say that i want to be a girl?
i am a girl trapped in this body.

why am i like this? what purpose does it serve?
i am not complete, i'm not whole and i'm not happy.
one more semester one more week i'll never be what i want.

and this just cannot be.
let a girl love a girl let a boy love a boy.
who's hurt?

i am lost. incredibly confused
i don't want to be a boy. i don't want to be this "self"
i'm gonna dress up real pretty, i'm gonna find all the answers.
i will let you down.

i will be selfish and i'll pull myself up
i will be selfish and i'll help myself
i will be selfish and i will let you down.
please learn to love me.
your son is dead.


from ghost girl, released July 1, 2016



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